Friday, June 26, 2009

The things people do

The things people do
Just to get at you,

The things people do
When they're missin' you,

The things people do
When they're well aware you got a boo,

The shit these people pull when they know its foul and rude!
Wack ways they try to pursue quickly change my attitude..

Now, I'm gonna step off poem form and just speak real about this...These things have been an issue with me and maybe some of you but i know that people should be able to relate to where i'm coming from.I'm not sure about anyone else but i've had people try in different ways to get at me as "want to get with me" and seriously the things they do present WACKNESS. PURE! and the fact that i'm not interested and already involved and that its on FACEBOOOK or MYSPACE makes it even worse lol Like if i was single, i'd probably be flattered by it but the shit is just plain WACK lol I appreciate the love but i got enough already sorry =/ ....

First off THE WEIRD. RANDOM. OUT of the BLUE! FRIEND REQUESTS! like do i know you? their answer is "Well, we do have X amout of mutual friends" or "I'm just tryna meet new people you know"....SERIOUSLY? or the "You dont remember me? I'm such & such's friend" UMM NO? i dont think so lol...then theres a inbox message or the one that i get most is the facebook instant message....I swear I'm about to start going offline seriously....SO I'm at most times a nice out going person, and that means i have no problem meeting new people but i think i'm gonna have to stop being like that lolWe would go into conversation and then they get slick right and pull a "O well, Hey! I'm about to go offline, TEXT ME!" , Like you really want me to have your number that bad?? You Jokin? and if its not the number its the aim screen name. Then if your nice like me, you feel theres an obligation to call or instant message lol I HATE THAT! Just writing this is changing me as we speak..I'm not fuckin being nice anymore yo when you finally hit them up they dont talk about shit, or they'll tell you look good or get turned down if that hasnt already seriously man...these people are crazy

Secondly, There that fuckin EX! lol idk about ya'll but i know they're out know the ones that might as well be singing "The Best I Ever Had" when they look at your pics. Like they always feel the need to tell people they went out with you when thats not even the case. They even tell people false dates and information lol Like i dont like that shit especially if you didnt even technically go out with them....this is the result of being you and dumb people. Don't make mistakes that you know you wouldn't like to look back on later in life and dont mislead an individual EVER! thats the worst thing. You'll end up having one of those "Ex's"....I just want to close out by telling those people out there that being THIRSTY is not the right path in life you should walk. Supposedly making new friends, but then come to find out you just want to get with them is NOT cool! Its not a good look for you cause being Thirsty just isnt the way man lol especially if you're young lol it only makes you look DESPERATE! and stop pushin yaself up on people, inviting yourself to shit you know you wasnt supposed to attend or just barging in on people's plans...TRY to use some discretion when you do things instead of just acting and just DOING! I'm a person who has made his share of mistakes and has learned from EM ALL! which i can say makes me the better person i am today and also Smarter i must say. I dont want to give off from this that i'm supposed to be this guy who thinks he's HOT SHIT...and that i have like group of people that stock me cause im soo fine lol i DONT think that at all...I think i'm an OK guy...i GUESS i'm good looking...NOT CONCEITED ONE BIT though...maybe just confident.JUST HOPE I'M UNDERSTOOD! Lol Feel Me??

Tuesday, June 9, 2009


One thing i never was able to wrap my over-large head around was suicide..WTF!!!i understand that people feel as though that they must run away from theyre problems but killing yourself wont do a damn thing but bring hurt, resentment, melacholy, etc..2 of my dearest friends have also expericed this type of thing...this is why i had decide to write about see suicide to many is an escape way so they can stop dealing with problems..all i have to say personally is its of my closet friends had commited suicide back in the summer of 2008..he had decided to sit in freezen cold ice water and slice both his wrist resulting in bleeding to death.they had found his body 10mins later life less..a letter he left behind read that he had done this because of the harrassessment he was enduring from people just because he was different..Honestly..if i could see him now i would tell him how stupid he was and how he rocked everyones he destoryed friendships..marriages..and even see the person who found his lifeless body was his then 10year old brother, Drew......
Drew has never been the same...ive seen the most active, talktive kid who you couldnt pay to shut up barely speak..people say that Anthony didnt just take his lfe away..that he took the hearts of everyone he loved, his parents marriage, Drews being with him to the afterlife...if i could eva have the chance to be able to talk some one out of suicide i would do it in a heart beat...
lOvE yOU AntOny


Wednesday, June 3, 2009


"Love is a temporary madness.
It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides.
And when it subsides you have to make a decision.
You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part.
Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion.
That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.
Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.
Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground,
and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."